Category: Grief
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Seven Years Ago March 9th
Same bed. Different geographical location. Different house. Tonight I hang out on a bed with my youngest daughter. She’s sick so she’s in bed with me just like she was seven years ago when she was a nursing one-year-old and Judah was living his last moments on earth. Right now we’re alone. Seven years ago…
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Heaven Calling
What is a story or poem that speaks to you? I have often felt the Lord speaking to me through music. I could go through story after story of situations where I was impacted by a song that had just the words I needed for my circumstances. Do I talk about the song where the…
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Two Blankets
Do you have a memory linked to a smell? Bloganuary post Jan. 16th. I inhale deeply trying to catch a whiff of what used to be a strong mix of scents. Blends of essential oils. Frankincense – an oil that was said to have helped brain tumors. Copaiba – possibly anti-inflammatory? Lavender – an all-around…
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One Billion Dollars
WordPress bloganuary prompt for today: If I had one billion dollars, how would I spend it? I can think of a few things for myself that I would want: a good ski boat that my husband doesn’t have to fight with to make work every summer, a bunch of house upgrades, a hot tub, newer…
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The Day Life Changed
It was Saturday, December 14th, 2013- one of the few days of the year when I got away with my oldest to go birding. The date of the Christmas Bird Count. We met early and were divided into groups of birders and set out. Cody and I and a couple of expert birders trudged through…
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Triggers
Today was a day with a painful trigger. An event that sets off a chain reaction of painful memories and sadness. My 10yo daughter was sick. Again. Today she was supposed to be at her dress rehearsal for her Christmas ballet song she’s been working on. Practicing and practicing so she has it down perfectly.…
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Hasten The Day
Recently I re-watched the movie “I Still Believe”, the story of Jeremy Camp’s first marriage. This movie always hits me with such great messages. This time as I watched, a conversation the actor portraying Jeremy Camp has with Jean-Luc, a music mentor in his life, stood out to me. Jean-Luc talks to Jeremy about songwriting.…
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When God Seems Silent
“Mom, I hate God. He made me lose my earbuds and won’t help me find them.” “I’ve prayed to find them, but God doesn’t care.” “If he knows where they are, why won’t he tell me?” Such valid questions from a ten year-old trying to understand God and prayer and her heartache over losing something…
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Judah’s Birthday 2022
I wrote this November 25th on Judah’s birthday. Judah is the middle child of 9 and died from a brain tumor when he was 11 in 2016 after a 2 year battle. Today is Judah’s birthday. I woke up with it being the second thing on my mind. I don’t remember what the first thing…
The Road Less Traveled 